Wednesday, May 15, 2013
As many of you may have noticed, I have been missing some days in the "schedule" of the blog.
I didn't quite expect the amount of things that would pop up out of the blue during this spring season that would take up so much energy and time.
Instead of choosing to overwhelm myself with personal expectation I believe I need to pause. I have said before my purpose for this blog is two fold. First, I don't desire to just write for the sake of writing but that my heart is to speak what God has been stirring within me. Then secondly, I desire for this to not just be a blog about me, but the hearts of the women around me with different view points, experiences and seasons of life.
I have been so excited time and time again with how God has used this small seemingly insignificant blog to encourage and inspire those who take the time to read. You all have been the sole reason for investing time to keep pressing on and becoming more real and transparent .
My heart for this blog is to be full of purpose. So I am calling out for some help and guidance from all of you. As I move forward praying for the leading of where to bring "Passionate Women," where are all of you at?
What have been the posts that inspired the most?
What have been the topics that have hit home?
What are some topics you would like to see included?
Would you like to see more guest post included in the future?
I would love to hear from you.
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Monday, May 13, 2013
I have been thinking on life lately.
Our church is going through a series called "What on Earth am I Here For?" By Rick Waren.
Such a cool reminder and reveler to the depths of what I am called to. So many simple and profound moments have been coming from the 40 day devotional and also from the Wednesday Night small groups.
But ... that's not quite what I am going to be spending time on...
Last week I had the privilege to attend a funeral for a dear friend of ours wife who passed away at the age of 29. My heart couldn't help but to pour out a deep overwhelming sorrow for his loss. I wasn't sure how to support him, or show him how much my husband and I loved him, other than to just be there standing beside him for a time, then to just hug him.
I also wasn't sure what to expect at the funeral. Heidi was so young. I anticipated a deep sense of pain and agonizing hurt. A spirit of heaviness. But I found myself in awe, the chapel was full of a peace. Tears ran down from every eye, but this sense of understanding and wealth of her life could be seen on every face. Although I could see the loss in her parents hearts, they seemed to be at rest. As I spoke to our friend and told him he was loved dearly, he gently and humbly thanked us for being there.
Heidi's life was one that was full of creativity, adventure and many tattoo's. Although I didn't know her well, the words spoken about her at the funeral brought so much clarity and beauty to the little bits that I had the privilege of getting to experience in person. She was not perfect and I am sure there are lots of funny and challenging stories that her parents, siblings, and husband could relay. But the thing that struck me the most was that within her short life, how much living she did experience. She did more in her lifetime to impact the many around her than most have the opportunity in the countless years they have before they are old and grey. She was found in many countries, mission trips, travels and teams like YWAM. Reading thoughts and memories and hearing from the hearts of those who knew her well, time and time again they spoke of the overflowing passion and love for Jesus and what he had done in her life. Followed so closely with her desire to make a difference for the downtrodden and the outcast, the poor and the broken.
I don't begin to try to understand why some are healed and live and why some dear spirits leave from us at such young ages.
But I have found myself being incredibly challenged with the life that Heidi had lived.
Am I living a life that is so incredibly full of purpose, that whenever my time comes, will those around me be able to say... She lived life to the fullest. She understood who she was and what God had called her to be. Would the words be written "She fought the good fight, she has finished the race, she has kept the faith." (2 Timothy 4:7)
~May the life of this beautiful woman, stir my spirit to embrace who God has called me to be. May I never find myself taking for granted the years I am given. May I be found loving those around me to no end.~
To those dear friends who have lost this beautiful spirit. I love you. Thank you for sharing your lives and Heidi's life with those around you. Your strength and tenderness and peace through this has brought so much inspiration to my life. One life out of the countless I believe with all of my heart that has been impacted by your loss. I pray God's comfort will continue to bring you peace. I pray that her life continues to inspire you to a beautiful new understanding of your life. I pray that the tears of sorrow will slowly turn to joy that will bring you all strength.
Friday, May 3, 2013
As I look back I can only marvel at the hand of God in my little families life. He has been so good!!! He has brought us through so many things, trials, heartache, bad decisions, hard work, sickness, the list goes on. I feel as I head into another new season of the unknown, I am looking back and reminding myself of all the things He has done.
I remember being overwhelmed with this young guy, 20 years old. I couldn't figure out why and how it is that God would have brought him on my path at such a unique time. A year and a half later from that point... I stood at the alter of the church with tears in my eyes thanking God for blessing me with my husband.
3 mths later, we look at this little "innocent" test and became speechless as we tried to fathom how God would trust a 19 and 21 year old with a precious life. As we celebrated months later our first anniversary, we looked at each other, then at our beautiful first baby girl, we were blown away with the blessing of becoming a family!
1 year later with another newborn in tow we looked into our empty fridge and empty pockets and became heart broken with the worry of how we would feed our family. That week we encountered miraculous provision, a box of food from our church, a young adult moving home from college giving us her "left over" never touched freezer full of meals. Then to just make a beautiful point God touched the heart of a family and they came over with a full list of groceries from cleaners, to shampoo, to fresh, pantry and freezer foods.
As another year went by, with 2 children and a desperate need for financial stability, we cried out for God to lead Adam to a new job. He then got a call from his grandfather. One day of work from that phone call became 1 year. Because of this job, full of many hours and hard work, we were able to facilitate our dream to move back to Kitchener.
The move to KW brought with it an incredible new church. Our striving, struggling lives connected with one of our greatest blessings to date, Koinonia Christian Fellowship. A church, full of humanity and imperfection, but with humility and faithfulness to live out what they preach. With longing hearts to learn we grew in so many areas!!! Then came the renewed desire in our heart to believe for more of what God wants out of our future.
Adam's passion grew from merely needing finances to needing meaning in his work. He cried out for clarity... God settled our spirit with the word of trust again. SOOO as we welcomed our third baby girl, we got a call from a brand new friend who offered a job and experience of a life time!!!
During this season we have had countless opportunities even as a couple for growth at a fast forwarded rate.
So much has happened since then. 2 more children, 2 of our very own homes and now a new bundle of joy to come... but through it all the consistent lesson that we have been taught is that life is a journey of trust and reliance on God. To embrace the "changes" in our plan and enjoy the path that God sets us on.
We are at a new cross roads again.. but as God has show us time after time... only when we trust in Him will the road to the future bring growth and blessing.
As we continue to commit to our core family value... Lord we choose the best path regardless of the road to it... we rest in His confidence.
Today as I pair together Throw Back Thursday and Freedom Friday.
~I pray that we learn to let go of our plans and Trust that God is putting us on the right path to the blessing that He has set before us!!!~
Wednesday, May 1, 2013
Burning In My Soul
There is power, power
Here in this hour, hour
We are all together, together
Waiting here as one
Whoa, hear the sound from heaven!
Whoa, a mighty rushing wind!
Whoa, we're calling for revival!
God let your fire fall again,
It's burning in my soul!
All Your sons and Your daughters Dreaming the dreams of their father
seeing the signs and the wonders, the kingdom of God
I cannot contain it, it's burning inside
I cannot contain it, so let it shine
I cannot contain it this light of mine It's burning in my soul
~God we pray for our sons and daughters to be dreaming dreams of their fathers seeing the signs and wonders of your kingdom!!!~