I am really enjoying life. I am tired. A little overwhelmed with tasks at hand. I am working hard but struggling at times to be a good mom and a good wife. I am desiring to get more into the word and learn more from what God has placed in my hands as a tool. All that and I am truly enjoying life. Why? Because I am enjoying the journey. I love that I am learning and growing and seeing myself get better and also fail with the purpose of falling forward and learning from those mistakes.
The purpose of saying all that is not to ooze my joy... but to encourage myself to keep on pressing on (as P.Paul would say) I love that my life isn't perfect. That I make mistakes, that I have people in my life to challenge me and push me to be a better person. I am learning to be teachable, to be humble and open to hearing correction and criticism. Man I hate it... but it's weird because in the midst of hearing what I don't want to hear I am at peace knowing it's for the better. That through those awkward conversations I am given the opportunity to become a better person, a better friend a better mom and a better wife.
I love that God is surrounding me with people who are different then me. Who have different points of view, personalities, giftings. I love that they are smarter than me and are able to give me tools to do life better. I love that the people God is surrounding me with are exampling how to be open and humble and exampling how to do something with challenging confrontation. I love that the people in my life care enough about me to confront me on things and inquire before taking offence. (Thanks Ryan for that line)I love that God has given me a place in other peoples lives to be able to be an encouragement. So that I can be given the opportunity to sew into others and not just be a receiver.
I am thankful. I am thankful to be able to have the ability to persevere through trial and also stay focused and aligned with Gods will when things are good. I am thankful to be able to be given the opportunity to choose a positive attitude when things are hard. Also to be given the opportunity to choose to be humble and to lay down my pride when things are going well.
I am sitting here giggling to myself because of the fact that writing this is now making me accountable to staying in line with my own word. Which makes me wonder what God has in store.. Good and challenging. :)
Well praise the Lord I am learning. And will continue to grow and mature as long as I keep my guard down enough to allow it to happen. And that is my prayer for me.